Friday, June 3, 2011

hmmm let me think!!



As everyone who knows me knows Im all about my zodiac sign and everything that goes along with it. So I know pretty much everything about my sign that at least applies to me as a virgo.I was reading this quote from a book last night.
"Virgo's positive qualities are (I analyze), clarity of thought, discrimination, courtesy, service to others, wears there hearts on their sleeves, magnetic, smart,loud,practicality and self-honesty. Expressed in their negative form they become criticism, crankiness, timidity, pessimism, inferiority and hair-splitting.(I had to add some in there because she forgot a few.)
...To Virgos, love means surrender of the self, a mystery they prefer not to solve. So they channel its energy into excellence in work... and although these men and women offer gentle devotion, love's true meaning still sleeps within the Virgo heart."
I already knew the first paragraph, were not a sign that people should really mess with when were mad it tends to bring out the worst in us. When she says " love means surrender of the self ". I keep wondering what kind of love she means is it love of family or friend? If she means it as the "love of your life" sort of thing then I would have to agree. As if she means us as virgos give love but for us to receive it is like pulling teeth. Like we have to surrender ourselves to someone before we can really feel loved. Until that happens I don't think we have to much of a problem being alone I rather like being alone. On the other hand giving out love and helping others, brings us great joy. It was just something that I had to let my mind go loose on because my zodiac sign is a subject I could never get tired of.

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

there comes a time












There come a time in life when you really have to start thinking about what really goes on around you. What you do day to day or how you spend it or who you spend it with. I can say theres very few people I trust, But I give out love and respect to even people who dont deserve it. oh well i guess. This person has no right to be in my life and I wish I could kindly ask them to leave it, because we've grown apart and it has become very apparent that they no longer wan't me in theirs either so I guess It would be time to move on. I know I've been pretty depressed lately well I guess for a while now and I just don't wanna be around anyone. Is it time for me to move again and try to start a new beginning I don't exactly know where I would go but I have a feeling in my heart, and my stomach/head. That tells me I need to move forward and I want to I just used to have a life and I feel as though it has been taken away from me ever since I lost my job and I seem to go down hill everyday... I need a serious moral boost but a lot of people don't help the situation. Im simply putting this in my blog not really caring that it gets read but because I can at the very least vent to my computer. I feel as though I have nothing and Im done feeling like nothing, not having any moral support really kills and puts a damper on my mood. I know now that I have really changed as a person and I need to get out and explore and change my life one way or another. So I can be proud of myself again! I know I have potential but when is the potential supposed to kick in without all the right tools?