there comes a time

There come a time in life when you really have to start thinking about what really goes on around you. What you do day to day or how you spend it or who you spend it with. I can say theres very few people I trust, But I give out love and respect to even people who dont deserve it. oh well i guess. This person has no right to be in my life and I wish I could kindly ask them to leave it, because we've grown apart and it has become very apparent that they no longer wan't me in theirs either so I guess It would be time to move on. I know I've been pretty depressed lately well I guess for a while now and I just don't wanna be around anyone. Is it time for me to move again and try to start a new beginning I don't exactly know where I would go but I have a feeling in my heart, and my stomach/head. That tells me I need to move forward and I want to I just used to have a life and I feel as though it has been taken away from me ever since I lost my job and I seem to go down hill everyday... I need a serious moral boost but a lot of people don't help the situation. Im simply putting this in my blog not really caring that it gets read but because I can at the very least vent to my computer. I feel as though I have nothing and Im done feeling like nothing, not having any moral support really kills and puts a damper on my mood. I know now that I have really changed as a person and I need to get out and explore and change my life one way or another. So I can be proud of myself again! I know I have potential but when is the potential supposed to kick in without all the right tools?

song writing

I so this special guy in my life told me that he wanted to write a "cute little love song" with me and so I said well I guess if you want and this is what we have come up with so far:

I wrote this:

" He was walking down the street with a smile as pure as honey,

when I saw him I knew I would never be lonely,

He is worth more than any money,

even when it rains our days will still be sunny."

He wrote:

" through dark skies and crying eyes,

I'll see this through the end,

Only time will tell our tale to the world."

hes such a bad rhymer but its but its still cute haha just thought I would share. :)

my bucket list

well my aunt wrote her blog on her bucket list, and it got me thinking about my bucket list I mean Im sure that mine is all fairy tale like . But what can I say I like to see myself as a princess on occasion.. Okay maybe all the time.

Before I die I want to.

1. Sky surf (yes this includes jumping out of an air plane and surfing in the sky).

2. meet the man of my dreams

... more or less my knight in shining armor.

3. Go to Ireland and take a massive amount of pictures for my photography portfolio.

4. Get married in a meadow in a big princess ball gown.

5. Have my photography published in a top notch magazine.

6. Swim with the dolphins.

7. Go to a Pittsburgh Steelers Game and meet troy polamalu and touch his hair since its better then mine.

8. Go snorkeling In Australia

9. Have a life full of adventure and love.

10. Kiss underwater

11. watch a solar eclipse on the beach.

12.Die in my sleep. (and meet my maker at the pearly white gates)

2011 really???/

christmas thru new years was completely awesome!! Then here comes 2011 The only good news so far is THAT the STEELERS are going to super bowl yAY!!! BUT other then that Ive had so much bad luck. Lost my job..lost some of my friends, my phone isn't working, kitty got ran over its like hello!! Can this black cloud just move onto someone else please? IM planning on going to arizona in may for like a month or so.

I need my license thats the first reason and the second its just because I feel like I need some brother time. Theres a new guy in my life I hope he stays in it for a while. I feel some potential goin on there.

*Tired*

I'm so tired my birthday was on the 12Th hence what the pictures are of. and then all this week I have been helping Lindsey and Avron move into there new house which is way nice shampooing carpets, dealing with stupid immature roommate...on top of that trying to get my own house done then... going over with Jessica to clean up Quiznos. I think its safe for me to say that I'm just a little overwhelmed at the moment and tired and stress but thanks to my dad alot of my stress was taken away.Theres really no good amazing news going on right now just really stressful news. UGHHH someone save me.

LOts of WOOOOOO's and Grrrrsss

I just hate it when some people don't pull there end of responsibility. it just bugs me so bad to have to clean up everyone else's mess grrrrr.

On the up side we all went to vegas last weekend

for avrons birthday and had a blast and went to my first strip club woo just kidding I actually didn't like it. but the birthday is coming up and im super excited for the 3 day weekend of celebrating wooo im gonna need the 4th day to sleeep allll day long and drink coffee why cuz i want to.

Im pretty excited for quiznos to open so i can have a new job FINALLY WOOO.

Me and stephani are just chilling out since its my day off looking at all our old pictures of or friends and stufff.

100 years to live

Today I got a call from my best friend Lindsey and she was talking about a song that she was choreographing to with her dance company called 100 years to live. But for some reason the title of this song hasn't been able to get out of my head all night. so as I think about it this is what I came up with. You have 100 year life span for some longer (the lucky ones anyways) and for some shorter (poor unfortunate souls), anyways you grow up and normally you spend 18 years or more of that 100 living with your parents and going to school for some this is different. but after all that is said and done. why do some people live in the shadows live life without a sense of adventure, without a thought to try something new for some maybe its because of there social status and for others well, who knows?But what I'm starting to realize is that, what is life without the adventure:trying new things, meeting people, falling in love, having a family and growing up to be an honest respectful person . I can't really understand how some just are able to rush there life constantly without living just for the moment because tomorrow is no guarantee. so why rush the days you have? Bad things may happen but sometimes bad things get thrown in our direction to overcome, learn and grow, eventually sometimes turning into something beautiful. Life is meant to live not rush through. So live each day differently spend each second loving, and have a sense of adventure you'll never know where it'll lead you, for you may not have a tomorrow. live for the present not the past but for the future.everyday brings a new miracle!!!

"Hundred Years " by five for fighting