Family is one of the main important things in my life and when it feels like one of my brothers is getting taken away from me it puts me in a sad state of mind because it seems like theres nothing i can do to stop it. and its all because of an idiotic ex step dad that wants to replace his family how can you just do that to a kid and not think what it would do to him. and its sad at the same time because my mom GOT a stable life just so she could get him back and now she dosent even have the money to get a lawyer. She feels like giving up all the time because her ex husbend is trying to cut off all contact permanitly. Im constantly telling her that its all gonna be ok and we would never let that happen but somewhere in the middle I have at least a pinch of doubt that says its not ok and it wont be all right but I still feel that this is something that I cant break down on because if I do she will and I dont want that to happen.And I know that Im not big into church but please pray for her she needs it.

Ashtons b-day

ASHTONS birthday was an amazing day,since my aunt took him and the boys out for his b-day me and bechia ended up going to red lobster with some friends from work:RObert,Jennet and kizzi.and sat there for almost 2 hours just laughing and haveing fun, then we went to gen x and bought me some gangster shoes and glasses... we followed that up with the mall and did sweet pictures that will not be on the internet because they are way to embarrassing for me and beckia. Went to debs and signed up to do modeling lol. sweet huh. we came home smelling LIKE 20 DIFFERANT PERFUMES and had our little dinner with LEAH BABY AND her FAMILY then we just sat up and played yoville forever.but all in all I loved it and Im glad it happened. PLUS I JUST LOVE REBECHIA EVEN THO SHES NOT GANGSTER LIKE ME.

So after along time of being off this thing I finally decided to write a blog.lol. like finally. But my new blog is about how my life has changed this senior year.
So far the first half of the year has caused me tears and heart ache. and alot of it comes from me missing my family. My best friends Lindsey,rebechia and I couldn't be closer as friends then ever Im so happy I have people in my life that helps keep me happy when Im upset.work is fun yet annoying at the same time you know how it goes DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA...Hip hop club this second half of the year made me complete yet wanna poke some people in the eye at the same time but luckily I only have to go to school half days now sooo I get to get A BREAK which is the most amazing thing ever.I totally want this guy and everytime I talk to him I get a sense of happyness that spreads out thru my hole body. I just can wait to graduate and go out into the world as a muture adult and finally make something out of myself.SO for right now Im gonna focus on work,school,and family and friends.because haveing a life is one thing I do need.